Touched.

Recently, something really bad happened.

Always low profile, i decided to just tell one friend what happened.

It snowballed.

Things happened in such unexpected events.

Friends came forward, concerned and taking their time to ask.

Night talks were frequent with best friend as i tried to come to terms with what happened.

Phone was abuzz with SMS and calls.

I am truly touched.

I am glad that within this period of time, it showed me something, i am not alone after all.

Ignorance.

The doctor came in hand with news to tell.

She was sick and she knew it.

But she didn't know how bad at first.

She prayed that nothing happened.

Alas, it was not to be.

Now seated on the chair with the IV drip.

She probably wished she never knew it.

Happiness/Love.

Happiness = Expectation. Do you agree?

If you have low expectations, won't it equate to happiness which is contentment?

For because of low expectations, you would be easily contented.

Is the equation true?

*Someone just told me i was off the mark. The conversation has not ended, but yet i was once again surprised by the answer of the person. *

Love. To be exact, 100% love.

A friend of mine set down true love as his hypothesis. Then he set down terms that must be true in order to conclude that true love exist.

These were the terms he set down to his concluding theory.

1) Love is a feeling of liking you have for your partner.

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2) Understanding is required for love. You can't love without understanding someone.

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3) Total understanding is required for 100% love. You can't love someone 100% without possibilities that your love for someone will change due to a wrong understanding of your partner.

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4) Total understanding is the PRECISE analysis of the subject (your partner) without BIAS.

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5) PRECISE analysis of the subject (your partner) without BIAS is only achievable by viewing the subject as an object which cannot affect how you feel towards it.

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Conclusion of 1 to 5: You cannot say you love your partner 100% without first analyzing your partner as an object which cannot affect how you feel. 5) forms a contradiction of the hypothesis (that true love exists) with 1).

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Because 1) to 5) are true and implies one another. Therefore I conclude true love does not exist.

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I disagreed with his terms that he used, but i agreed that there is no 100% love for humans. Make that ALL emotions. At the same time, we can also never put something intangible to a quantity because it is immeasurable.

Love is a complex thing just like happiness. The mind seeks for answers we can never answer and more grief/stress might appear because of answers unanswered.

A time for everything. The 3rd post.

*This was initially meant for the new year, but i kept postponing it*

There is a time for everything,
and a season for every activity under heaven:

a time to be born and a time to die,

a time to plant and a time to uproot,

a time to kill and a time to heal,

a time to tear down and a time to build,

a time to weep and a time to laugh,

a time to mourn and a time to dance,

a time to scatter stones and a time to gather them,

a time to embrace and a time to refrain,

a time to search and a time to give up

a time to keep and a time to throw away,

a time to tear and a time to mend,

a time to be silent and a time to speak,

a time to love and a time to hate,

a time for war and a time for peace.

This is one of the highlights in Ecclesiastes when Solomon wrote this.

This is the whole aspect of life's time. How the whole journey of life is characterized by all the events. The only thing truly missing is the WHEN. We will never know. We only know these things do happen and will surely happen. So how are you spending your time?

Responsibility

When we were younger, we showed no strains of stress.
We were carefree. Homework were hidden behind cupboards. Switching on the telly only to watch the cartoons. Reading comics. If we said something honest and straightforward, everyone will laugh and prolly agree. Playing all day seems to be the motto for younger days.

Times have changed.
Homework can no longer be hidden for risk of losing job. The stress built up with added responsibilities of earning enough to provide or to sustain a better lifestyle. Reputation is also built up.
Switching on the television to watch the news which in my opinion is always showing bad news.Just a reminder, General Election is this year.
Reading the news becomes a daily affair.
An honest and brutal answer might get shoot down for being not politically correct. In a way, we grow up to a world of facade.
Responsibilty becomes the motto of this life.

Peace.

Have you ever had peace?

Peace of the heart, mind and soul.

I used to feel it but i got lost and strayed.

I wanted the peace and yet i wanted things that prevented the peace to reign.

I became disillusioned with the world. I saw things in different ways.

I took things to heart and tried to find the answer desperately.

I knew i cannot find the answer with my finite knowledge yet i tried.

The ways never satisfy me and i am left with more problems then answers.

It was a wretched situation for me. I could not get to sleep peacefully.

I got depressed. I shook up at every minor events, every human error, i pointed to human nature and the more i saw each day, the more depressed i grew. I knew i cannot understand but yet i wanted to understand.

I have to find back the peace.